My first day at trying to go with the calling of the Holy Spirit has been met with disaster. Now, I know that this is not always an instantaneous happening, but I thought that with constant prayers throughout the day, begging for the Holy Spirit, I might tap into that life and peace I am promised. Unfortunately, the result is not quite the day I envisioned. In fact, it has been met with a lot of discord, irritations, disappointments and ended with quite a bit of crying, by me. What is going on?
Is it possible to become ADD as you get older? I mean, I know that I haven't always been able to remember and keep up with things, but it is getting progressively more bothersome as I get older. In less than 24 hours, I lost our market rent check. To list all the searching I have done would take hours. I'll just note that the pinnacle was going piece by piece through a black garbage back that was in our toter...just in case. I have prayed and prayed and prayed over this check and finally realized that I would have to call my renters and ask for another one. How completely embarrassing. I could list about 3-5 other things that are along that vein that have happened this week - forgetting Lily's piano books, losing the map to our house that I have used forever (given to people, not used by myself of course), forgetting to measure a pipe on our hot water heater so I can get the right part resulting in a slight flood, forgetting to send in our annual report for part of a subset of our business, etc. etc. etc.
I know I am a mom of three which means that I am fully responsible for 3 other human beings and all of their belongings. That is an excuse I hear myself saying all the time. However, I just don't buy that excuse - being overwhelmed. Maybe it is being out of our normal routine down here under the stairs. Thankfully, we move back up tomorrow.