I am actually doing it. I am homeschooling one of my children. The very child I said would be the last one I would ever choose to homeschool, which I never planned to do for any of my kids anyway. The very child that never evoked sadness when I left her at a new adventure. The very child that exposed every sinful fiber of my being. The very child that has challenged much of what I thought I knew about myself. The very child that seemed more alien to me than familial.
After two days, yes, only two days, I can say...I love this. I love this child. I love this decision. I love where it is taking me and I love what I see blooming between us. I don't recall having received so many "I love you" notes in such a short time. She actually said, "I can't believe you are doing all of this for me." Our time together has been precious. PRECIOUS!
Now, I am a realist. I know this is the honeymoon stage and that by October I will be seriously rethinking my decision. I will have this blog post to remind me of what I saw in these early days that filled me to the brim.
This year is about us - more than anything academic. It is about repairing my previously deteriorating, hurtful and always on the verge of exploding relationship with my daughter. My eyes are full of tears as I type this. Thank you, God, for this opportunity. Thank you for taking my once very stubborn and hardened heart and transforming it to your will.