Why I Am Leaving Facebook

Hi, my name is Kelsey and I am addicted to facebook.

My love affair with facebook began in June 2008. I even documented it with a post on this blog. Little did I know what started as a little whim would evolve into being a stronghold in my life.

Oh, it was so incredibly fun in the beginning. Every time I logged on there would be a new connection. I loved seeing updated pictures of people I hadn't seen in years, hearing what life had been for them, laughing at old times. I squealed in delight when I reconnected with my debate camp roommate from the summer of '86. I walked down memory lane with my girls from year abroad, even reconnecting with every member of my host family during that year. I found family members I hadn't seen in years, all the while sinking deeper and more passionately enamored by the trappings of facebook.

A high school reunion this past fall egged on the relationship. It fed the "need" to check facebook on levels that way surpassed more than healthy. The committee planned the reunion largely on facebook ensuring that I would be held captive for the planning period of 6 months prior to the event.

Little jabs by my real-world significant other (Jay), made me stop and think about my indiscretion, but it was easy to explain away the time spent as productive, useful, my only means of connection with "some of these friends." Meanwhile, I was checking my home page all too frequently - multiple times a day. I had way too much information in my brain, drivel that was dribbling to be exact, about mere acquaintances. Some "friends" I have never actually had a verbal, out loud conversation with. I looked at pictures of people I didn't even know!

Things started to really change when that little lovely voice of conviction started creeping in. It wasn't me, my husband or my friends telling me how this has taking over, it was Him. Those nudges you just can't explain away. You have to deal with them head on.

To cap it off, I started a new bible study, "No Other Gods" by Kelly Minter. Should have known by the title that this would be a study that made me examine the motives of my heart. One compelling statement in the early part of this study is, "I'm totally afraid we are routinely putting ourselves in front of things that compromise the good the Lord wants to accomplish in us."

You can begin to see cracks in my relationship with it here in January of this year. I was thinking about breaking up with Facebook, but wasn't quite ready to let it go. You know, what if I lost contact with some of my friends again? Part of my social world would disappear. I couldn't think about the horrors of horrors...my B.F. life (before Facebook) and returning to it. I wasn't willing to live that out, yet.

Meanwhile, the bible study continued. I set out to discover what I was, without much thought, putting ahead of what I should be. What had become an idol in my life? It was pretty easy to discover one. Facebook. Sure, there are several others sitting on the list, but Facebook is the easiest one to fix.

The smack in the face, however, came when it was revealed to me what the "things" on my list had in common. Identity. It was a little wounding to discover what I feared most was to be forgotten, to be looked over, to no longer have affirmation to my being - like having 19 comment posts to my status update. Now, you don't have to tell me how completely pathetic that is. My identity in Christ does not pale in comparison to my identity on Facebook, but in time, I had allowed that to happen.

While I am at it, let me just lay it all on the line. When you fill your brain up with information about other people, information that you would normally not be privy too, it can bring out some pretty nasty internal results...coveting, self-pity, comparisons, judgements, even anger. In fact, Tom Keller, pastor of Redeemer Presbyterian Church in NYC says, "Idolatry is attached to everything, All of our bitterness, all our impurity, all our malice, all of our problems, everything that troubles us is a result of idolatry." I had allowed Facebook to become an idol - of my time, of my emotions, of my identity.

Now, I am not here to stir up a debate about the merits of Facebook. Nor do I want to hear all the reasons why someone has justified their relationship with it. I am writing only about myself and my complete lack of self-control. In no way am I claiming that Facebook is a pox against all society and rallying for its complete destruction.

You know, I actually have to giggle at a remark someone made to me yesterday. I stated I was writing this post and they said, "It sounds like you are writing your obituary." Actually, it is. A death to the sinful, self-focused self that I am, that quickly foresakes God for a few comments and accolades on a website. However, there is no sadness with this announcement, only joy. In that death is a birth of more of Him within me. Oh what joy and peace knowing my heart now has more room for God. My God - a guilt-less, convicting-less, loving addiction.

This prayer from A.W. Tozer completely sums up this battle and victory (from Facebook, light-hearted and trivial, to the more heart-wrenching idols of self-worth and control):

"Father, I want to know You, but my cowardly heart fears to give up its toys. I cannot part with them without inward bleeding and I do not try to hide from You the terror of the parting. I come trembling, but I do come. Please root from my heart all those things which I have cherished so long and which have become a very part of my living self, so that You may enter and dwell there without a rival. Then You shall make the place at Your feet glorious. Then shall my heart have no need of the sun to shine in it, for You alone will be the light of it, and there shall be no night there."

Exposed

Well, I panicked yesterday. I thought I had exposed too much, yet again. It wasn't that I didn't want anyone to read my posts. It was that I didn't want it plastered all over facebook like I was announcing, "Look what I have done! Look what I can do! Everyone pat me on the back." For some reason this time, multiple stories I had written showed up on the news feed of my friends. Basically, it all boiled down to me messing around with technology that I really didn't understand how to use.

When I was alerted to this fact, I thought it was clogging up facebook, people's profiles, etc. I was also told that I should be concerned because it was like my personal diary and personal thoughts. I realized the person telling me this had not read my blog before because it is pretty obvious that my blog is all about the personal and private - from the triumphs to the failures and all in between. I don't really hold much back.

I link my blog to the outside world because I think others might find the subject matter relatable. If I am going through it, then someone else is, too. Sometimes I post because I need comforting or affirmation of my parenting. Writing is the cheapest form of therapy for me. Other times, my life is just so ridiculous, that I think that it needs sharing. I can laugh at it, so can others.

What came out of "my mistake" yesterday was really fantastic. I had three conversations with parents at my kids' school who had been dealing with the same issues in their house. Some had suggestions, some just provided comfort. One was considering an ENT referral, but was now thinking urological. One person provided much comfort about the tests Sadie will undergo, having been there with her daughter. And one offered to have her child, recently solved of the issue, to provide support to Sadie. I received some wonderful encouragement and enlightenment from other parents who also parent children like Sadie. Here are several comments:

"It was exactly what I needed to give me perspective for what has been going on between my daughter and me."

"Your words that Sadie often uses the word "embarrassing" hit home with me in a way that you will never know. My daughter tells me that all the time. It was a light bulb for me. Her idea that she is a tough girl makes it embarrassing that she needs me to help her. I constantly tell her that if she came on this earth knowing how to handle everything, then there would be no need for God to make parents. He would just plop us here and send us on our way."

The world is such a different place for our little girls. They are trying so hard to compete at such high levels finding their place in a world where people think of equality now, versus that of God's design. They want to be tough like boys, but don't know how to balance that with their natural feminine instincts. It can be particularly more difficult for little girls who have issues in their lives that they find embarrassing so perhaps they search for other means to prove that they are okay."

"I just thought you should know that with kids who carry things so close to their heart it can be challenging and I understand what you are feeling."

I also received much encouragement from friends to keep plugging along this mothering trail:

"Hearing your words just re-enforced what Tripp says in Shepherding a Child's Heart--it's not their behavior we focus on; it's what is going on in their hearts. We parents can help our kids experience cleansing and wholeness as they learn to delete these fears, wounds, and unrealistic expectations from their little hearts.Hopefully, you will have the joy of a mother watching her adult child who has THROWN OFF EVERY ENCUMBRANCE AND THE SINS WHICH SO EASILY BESET HER and is running her race of life!Blessings to you in your mothering."

She is one of my favorite kids....I love her spunk...she reminds me of my daughter in many ways...

"Aren't you thankful when the Holy Spirit allows us to see a little deeper and reveal a little more about one of the Lord's precious creations!"

Finally, I was overwhelmed at the response to me, as a "writer." I didn't know how many of you read this little corner of the world of mine. To clarify, I know the general numbers of who checks out my blog daily, but I do not have names. How enjoyable it was for me to hear many of you comment on facebook. Glad I can provide some free entertainment for you, although I know I am on the greater receiving end.

On a last note regarding transparency, a topic I refer to often, let me quote a comment I received on something I wrote I while ago.

"This post feels like a pep talk for anyone (such as myself) that follows Christ out on a limb and then needs to remind themselves of why they went out there. Saying something is too personal is just an excuse to remain comfortable...and I'm right there with you, sick of comfy and ready for real! Keep it up!"
Thank you for comforting me in my time of anxiety and panic. I love the dialogue and comments although I can't always respond. If the your comments and life experiences are encouraging to me, then they are to others as well. Keep them up!


For God did not destine us for wrath, but to gain salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ, who died for us, so that whether we are awake or asleep we may live together with him. Therefore, encourage one another and build one another up, as indeed you do.
Thessalonians 5:9-11

Facebook Crackbook

Question: If our world continuously provides ways of faster and more immediate means of communicating with others, then why do most of us feel very "unconnected, isolated and alone?"

I have been mulling over that which is "facebook" for a while. There are times when it seems to completely consume me (Crackbook) and then other times I don't check it for several days or a week. My interest in facebook began a year and a half ago when I was recuperating from back surgery. My long-time friend, Angela, suggested it to me as a great way to kill time. She was correct in that assessment. Later, my focus on facebook was driven by my pending high school reunion. As part of the committee, it was invaluable tool through which we found classmates and organized the reunion. That was in October. Now, I am not too sure why I am still lingering around those parts.

Most assuredly, facebook satisfies some basic surface connections, but over time it stays just there, never going deeper. You know all bits of trivial information about people, like what they cooked for dinner, how busy their weekend was and how accurate they are at weather updates (as if I can't look out the window). Yet, something is clearly missing.


Do I really need to know that much mundane, monotonous information about my friends? More poignantly, is it replacing a deeper level of connection that satisfies that longing of every soul - to feel as if he matters?

What I find happening through facebook is that you just stop talking...with your voice. You read these little bits and pieces of people's lives and think you have made a connection. You begin to believe you "know them." In reality, no meaningful, heart-filling exchange has taken place. No one knows you, who you really are and you know nothing short of how your friend's children made the honor roll. It becomes isolating and lonely. Before you know it, you begin to believe that the world is moving without you.

I am in a bit of a quandary over this one. Would deactivating my account make me "unreachable?" Hardly. I am in the phone book, I do have this blog and I do have an email account. Those that want to stay in touch will and those that don't are probably not friends I had prior to facebook. Deactivating would also mean more face time, a forced reason to call people, and more time to do just about everything during some weeks. I think it also means more time to devote to writing, something I clearly love more than facebook.

A facebook year in review

I had this ridiculous idea to copy all of my status updates from facebook in 2009. It took several hours (yes, a major time waste, but what part of facebook isn't), but then again,there were many things I had forgotten about and am glad I am preserving them here. I doubt that anyone would want to read all 10,002 words (yikes!), however it is a good survey of my life in 2009. I recognize that I wrote about my kids, their sickness, my cooking, my beloved tarheels and animals in our house entirely too much. At the same time, that is pretty much a quick snapshot of my life. Drumroll please...here is my life in status updates (most recent first):

thinks it is time to turn off the electronic connections and get back to in person relationships. Turning off facebook for the Christmas season. Phone me if you need to reach me. Merry Christmas to everyone.

A study published Monday in The Journal Of Child Psychology And Psychiatry has concluded that an estimated 98 percent of children under the age of 10 are remorseless sociopaths with little regard for anything other than their own egocentric interests and pleasures. AHA!

I just don't think this is what John Newton had in mind when he wrote this so"Amazing Grace, nor probably Jesus either when he was born. I could be wrong...trying to keep an open mind. Thanking God this is not my next door neighbor! http://vimeo.com/440842

took Sadie to the dentist this morning. She had a great check-up, had a nice chat with the dentist. Took Sadie to school. Called Jay to tell him "no cavities" and then realized I walked right out without paying!!! Hope this scattered-ness is not a sign of the week to come!

is going to try my hand at peacemaking today.

Sadie, "When I grow up, I am going to have four children and I am going to give them Mt. Dew." Knock yourself out sister!

has a mental debate going on...If you live in the woods and no one can see you house from the street, just how much outside decorating do you do? Right now, there is a single wreath on the front door. Do I even bother with the other wreaths? Lights on the little evergreens by the door, or bag it all?

wonders just how concerned I should be that Sadie and her sleepover friend are giving Lily, "a complete make over." They are in my bathroom. Hmmmmm........

enjoyed a little social time with our Star Aquatics teammates tonight at Chili's. Well, except for when Sadie announced that she doesn't brush her teeth very often. Why, oh why, is this a positive statement to her? I do love that child.

Could it be? A squirrel just on the window sill of our bedroom and acted like he wanted to come in. Seriously. I opened the window and he just sat there and then scampered away. I am having flashbacks to last Christmas with the orphaned/pet squirrel.

still laughing and pondering the implications of Sadie's first sleep walking incident into our room last night at 10. She was clearly still asleep, mumbling, picked up the remote and started walking away.

While Christmas shopping on Amazon, I stumbled upon this. Don't ask me why I clicked on it - maybe the lure of 2/$20. Anyway, the reviews are hilarious and the suggested purchase package made me cackle out loud. http://www.amazon.com/Pike-Street-Cuddly-2-Pack-Wrap/dp/B002DELZ78

arranging scrapbook weekend at Whispering Winds. February 19-21. I need those interested to contact me asap if interested and for details. Google the above for details.

is very thankful for the rain boots she recently purchased, the hot water faucet/hose in the garage and grease cutter. Why? Because that is what you need when the dog gets tangled up in the turkey deepfryer still standing in your driveway the day after Thanksgiving and turns the entire thing over. If you love the smell of deep-fried turkey, come on over! We’ll be smelling it for days!

justified a slice of Jay's Dutch apple pie and real whipped cream for breakfast. It is a fruit, right?

It is good to praise the LORD and make music to your name, O Most High. Psalm 92:1 Happy Thanksgiving!

heading out to my last real school Thanksgiving party - complete with Indian costumes. Lily chose her Indian name to be, "Bright Star." Here's to oreo and mini-moonpie turkey desserts since, you know, they were on the menu at the first Thanksgiving.

just listened to Lily sing her own rendition/combo of Old McDonald, the ABC Song and Jesus Loves Me while in the bathroom. Several times she started a line over because she realized she was out of her vocal range and brought it down an octave. I couldn't help but giggle. These days are going by much too fast.

wants her children to serve others this Christmas. Help me gather ideas and compile a list. Let's hear them, friends! I'll start the list with Operation Christmas Child shoe boxes. The more hands on, the better.

Crazy. Sitting here in bed while Jay is still recovering from Friday's surgery (he is asleep), Sadie is in between us with step throat (she is asleep), Lily is laying on the floor at the foot of the bed recovering from two late nights (she is asleep) and Ethan is reading his book for his book report, on my bed, talking about how tired he is. Sunday, 7 pm, and I think I am in the Twilight Zone.

wonders how Lily fell asleep in "A Christmas Carol" today; it was so loud! Ultimately, I was pretty happy with this fact since it had some pretty intense/scary parts for a 5 year old.

is taking Mr. Deviated Septum for surgery today. Then having Sadie's birthday party tonight while he is passed out in the bedroom on pain meds. Say a prayer for us all!

was just told by my insurance that their "new" reason for not covering my MRI is that my sister had her bc in only one breast, not bilaterally. Uh...last I heard it only took cancer in one breast to have the potential to kill you. Thank you, Milliman National Guidelines and actuary company.

is vacationsick for Florida sunshine. Blah!

Trying to change my focus...here's to incredible UNC basketball seasons to come! Roy stuck a fork in Coach K with recruiting Barnes! This one hurts K . . . both professionally and personally. Gotta love it! GO HEELS!!!!!

My last factoid and vent on this issue. Early detection SAVES lives - that is proven. Stage 1 survival rate at 5 years: 100%. Stage 4 survival rate at 5 years: 20%. Oh, and I might add that not one of the members of this task force is a bc expert. All the leading experts, hospitals, etc. are denouncing this "change" in recommendations.

Raise some noise, LADIES!!!! 301-427-1364. That is the number for the "insurance in my back pocket experts" with the USPSTF. Contact your representatives. This decision was made by "our" government. I don't think this is a "change I can believe in."

With its new recommendations, the U.S. Preventive Services Task Force is essentially telling women that mammography at age 40 to 49 saves lives; just not enough of them. Roughly 15 percent of women in their 40s detect breast cancer through mammography. How are these two statements compatible? Angry? YES!

tried to rent a stroller on that last day at Disney (Epcot - the only time we needed one) and my card was blocked - suspicious fraudulent activity. Just checked with our bank and yes, someone was racking up some groceries at a HT and who knows what at a drug store in Raleigh while we were oblivious in Florida. Kudos to the bank for catching it.

is home again. I woke up in the post-Disney slump. Now, to download, organize and print pictures to start the scrapbook!

thinks we can skip the High Point parade this year after seeing Mickey's Christmas parade last night. Kids rode Thunder Mt. 3x without getting off - no crowds. On to Epcot and then home tonight. Boo hoo

We made it! Surprise was awesome, though it seemed to fully sink in about 15 minutes down the road. Animal Kingdom conquered today. Bad Mommy award today for letting Lily ride Dinosaur. Everest Rocked. Only waited 15 mins. max for anything, BUT it is very cool. Tomorrow should be warmer. Pics and video to come!

Happy 8th Birthday to my most phenomenally fantastic and crazy Sadie! Guess what?!?! You are going to Disney World! (But, shhhhhhh she won't know until 1:15. The suspense is K-I-L-L-I-N-G me!!!!)

To take the stroller or not to take the stroller...THAT is the question. We haven't used it in years. We are flying to Disney and Lily is 5. Help me out fb friends!!!

just worked out while listening to Music Choice's "Party Hits" on cable. For the life of me I can't figure out what criteria they use for songs they played in this category. Nothing said "Party Hits" to me. More like "Depressing Misses."

To the lady that rolled her eyes at my child's behavior this afternoon...I am just an imperfect parent, raising three imperfect children and that is God's design. If it bothers you, then take it up with Him.

T-minus 2 days. Going to start packing today. Keeping this secret is getting harder and harder!

is sitting down to go through 3 Friday folders. The waste of paper is astounding.

another day inside at a pool. Now, I have the joy of listening to Sadie sing the "diarrhea song." Thank you, Carpool Dad, for teaching this to my very impulsive and highly lacking in self-control child.

found it incredibly difficult to stay still in my seat watching "This is It." I should probably be slightly embarrassed by this fact, but the complexity of his music and the entire experience he wanted to create is still very amazing to me. He was a musical and dancing genius, regardless of his personal life.

will be channeling her former career self by leading a sales training meeting today. Should be interesting!

Sadie decided to help with dinner last night making something for us to eat before the main meal. Lily called it her "apple-tizer." I love a 5-year old vocabulary.

Lily, 5 announced that when she has a baby she will name it Sissy-Grace. Still laughing over it.

Thanks for ALL the Disney tips!!! We are staying in a house a mile outside of the park (we stayed inside last time). I have a character breakfast and Cinderella's Royal Feast scheduled as well as Mickey's Very Merry Christmas. We will take full advantage of fastpasses! Anything else?!?!?!

Please post your best insider's tip for Disney (besides the obvious, don't try to cram too much in it). T-minus 7 days...BUT SHHHHHHH - the kids don't know. It is a surprise!

A nerd, an angel and a robber...can you guess who decided to be what? Off to dinner, trunk or treat at GSB, then trick or treating with the fam.

survived another meet. Time gained, time lost, but most importantly...we finished. We are all settling down for a long nap today!

while waiting for Jay to arrive at Thai Chiang Mai for dinner, Lily decided to mess her pants. Highly frustrated after a day of moving and no clothes on hand to change her into, I told the other two kids to get in the car. Jay arrived, came into the restaurant and offered to wrap L in a towel, take the kids home, deal with them and let me wait on take-out.

every once in a while I am amazed, stunned even, at the kindness and thoughtfulness of others. My mom just called and she and my stepdad have offered to come over and help get us moved back into the house. Oh, how I love them!

tried to see some friends at market and only made it to two showrooms before sick child called. She just needed some rest, thankfully. Moving back up (to the top) tomorrow, swim meet on Saturday. Life is moving forward as usual.

never realized you can "bruise" your teeth. Hello vicodin!

Ok, so seriously, I do love my husband. At this moment, he is working with Ethan on his bug project and homework, giving me a little break.

My fb friends know the truth. Shared laptops in the basement only means one thing... Thanks, Jay.

I just keep being amazed at how smart, witty, gracious and good looking my husband is. He is just so awesome. I'm just so lucky!

Anyone ever had a pull-up put in the hamper, only to be put into a front loading washing machine? Then you know my pain. This might take days...

is nearly at the finish line. Yay! Here's to a long weekend by the fire.

I am pleased to announce that the sequel to, "The People that Live Under the Stairs," has been asked to reschedule its premiere to Wednesday. Yes, tonight. Entitled, "The Mole People," the sequel will play round the clock for the next 9 days, staring the Dumoulin family. Call me on my cell if you need additional information.

Final gross market discovery (I think #6): Long forgotten, self-titled "science experiment" of Sadie's - two ziploc bags on the covered porch table- one with the remains of apples and water, the other with the remains of apples and milk. Enough said.

think I can make it today, this day before market renters arrive, because Jay brought me energy food - Dutch chocolates and cheese! (Yay!) He also brought me some Dutch dish brushes and a new dustless broom. (Huh?) The irony of new cleaning tools does not escape me on this day.

Every time I move a piece of furniture, there is a marble underneath. I have a collected entire plastic cup full. Was this a bizarre Easter egg hunt gone wrong?

Missed my friends at bible study this morning!

Taking a deep breath, digging into the word and drinking coffee. Going to start this day off right!

Market people...what is the craziest thing you have done in preparation of market renters? I want to know if how over the edge I have become.

Just talked to Jay and his parents who are in the Netherlands. I love modern technology. Nice for the kids to talk AND see their grandparents using skype. Now hurry up and get home, Jay!

Happy to report that no one drowned at the meet today! The highlight was definitely the backstroke for both kids. Ethan is so me, the nervous nelly. Sadie could care less - just thrilled to be swimming - any stroke, any distance. Looking forward to the first official competitive meet (for them) in two weeks. My kids are better swimmers than me!

Nominations for the Nobel Peace Prize had to be postmarked by February 1, only 12 days after Obama took office. The committee sent out its solicitation for nominations last September, two months before Obama was elected president. Huh? I want to understand this, really I do!

Home from Grandfather where the leaves were peak and FABULOUS! Great trip! Now, onto packing up for the kids first warm-up swim meet in the morn. They are both doing the 100 yd IM, plus three other races, and I am very, very nervous for them. Hope I can hide it and be the laidback mom I was not created to be.

is heading up the mountain today - Grandfather and Linville Caverns with the 4th grade! Hope no one gets motion sickness during the drive.

dropped Jay off at the airport. I was halfway home and his cell phone rang. Yes, HIS phone, sitting in MY car. Turned around to take it to him and enjoyed hearing him eat crow for all the "you are so spacey" comments.

Flashback on the cowbell brought me to this oldie, but definite goodie. Elizabeth, this is especially for you.

Struggling to stay on task today. Maybe I need more cowbell!

Alrighty then - rethink, replan, re-FREAK. Jay is leaving tomorrow for the Netherlands for a funeral. He will get back the day before market renters arrive. I was really praying for a different perspective this time around.

market cleaning discovery #2: small tackle box with one dark chocolate raisinette in each compartment. Not gross, just strange.

Hmpf. Next weekend's plans to the mountains just got canceled and I have kids out of school (halfday Thurs and all day Friday) and a house full of market guests. Need plan B...FAST!

For the love of florists around the world...can we revote on that class flower? If you don't remember it was a white rose, tipped in black and wait for it...wait for it...covered in silver glitter. BAM! Yeah, I know, I should just move on.

just realized that Ethan has a choral concert tonight which means a crazy day...guitar for Ethan, swim lessons for all three kids, dinner out and then back to school. Didn't sleep last night thinking about market cleaning and ridiculous schedules. Think I need to get an eternal perspective this morning.

Ledford people, what a great night. Now, get pictures up from the reunion. Give me an excuse to further procrastinate on the "Market Cleaning Freakout" of '09.
is excited to see my high school friends this weekend!!! Some are already rolling into town. Yay! Tonight - football game and Ham's, Saturday - family picnic, and Saturday night - living the high life at Grandover.

Just read an essay contemplating that the third child is a "career killer." When I look at my sweet Lily's face, I hardly think I have sacrificed anything, let alone committed a crime. Why is staying at home seen (in many circles) as negative, lowly, lazy and second-rate?

is humbly thankful for a changed Sadie this week, for a morning of peace and quiet at home, for clothes that I can clean, for closets full of provisions that I can organize and an abundant supply of food with which I can feed my family.

Salivating. Serious coveting here. Can we plan a weekend? Only 4 miles from the Scrapbook Superstore. WOW!

thinks that Ansley is pretty glad to have missed her 40th birthday today. What a ribbing she would have received. Now, she is in a place where age does not matter - Hallelujah!

victory is already assured! Yay!

just realized it is Kidstuff tonight at church and we have missed it. Wonder how long until the kids remind me?

had a fantastically productive day, but missed my usual scrapbooking gang. Also, I might have begun to accept the idea that I am not a scrapbooker, just a scapbook shopper!!!

trying to get things organized for scrapbooking for breast cancer in W-S tomorrow from 10 am - midnight! Woo hoo! Just wish packing up were easier!

I don't know why I can't let this go. It is just so bizarre. I only heard it on the radio. Curiosity led me to find the commercial on youtube. Even stranger. I miss the big hair. (Ric Flair commercial for the NC Lottery)

never thought she would hear Ric Flair (whooo!) and the NC educational lottery in the same sentence until she heard the commercial on the radio. He sounded really old and pretty pathetic endorsing his own signature ticket which gives you 16 ways to win - you know, the number of championships he has won. At least 5 times he said, "Whoo!" Say what!?!?!

I am in LOVE!

"The world can’t understand Him, armies can’t defeat Him, schools can’t explain Him and leaders they can’t ignore Him. Herrod couldn’t kill Him, Nero couldn't’t crush Him, the new age cannot replace Him and Oprah cannot explain Him away!" Blessed to be His today.

wonders when parenting Sadie will get easier. I need some encouragement tonight, my friends.

a friend came up to Jay yesterday @church and asked how our anniversary was...I walked up in time for us to realize that we BOTH missed it. It was Saturday - 11 years. HOW SAD IS THAT!

is amazed at what 15 extra minutes will do for the entire family during the morning routine. What a delight.

is amazed at what a little rocker my 5 year old is! Loved seeing her rock out with Skillet. Priceless memories in what turned out to be a great day with the entire family.

was pretty excited about Carowinds/Chirs Tomlin/Skllet tomorrow until I saw the weather forcast and the time line of the concert. What was I thinking?

getting my "stuff" together, realizing I am to bring 2 dozen cookies (homemade) to school today, look for a costume for Sadie for Johnny Appleseed Day Friday and get something for Ethan's teacher. I realized I forgot strawberries to Sadie's class yesterday, am late on thank you notes from Lily, saw that we have an expired passport for one of the kids. The list never ends, it just maintains and grows, right?

just got the phone call...going to pick Sadie up from school. Guess she wasn't as well as she thought she was.

Yup. Should have known. No one is up screaming and crying tonight and now I can't sleep. Still, I'll take my insomnia over hurting children any night of the week.

Class of 1989...Word on the "street" is that 6 more people signed up in the last hour...YOU STILL HAVE TIME! Email me! Just think, tomorrow..no more reminders! Yay for all of us!

Washington State, Texas, Ohio, Virginia, Tennessee, South Carolina and from Charlotte to Wilminton...all representing at our class reunion. Today is the last day to purchase tickets. Don't live in regret!

Thanks, friends. As always the morning is better and you can see the light. I have a tough time watching my child screaming in pain knowing there isn't anything I can do. She had a decent night's sleep and we both lounged in the bed late this morning. Please pray that Lily doesn't get this.

can. not. deal. with. this. (Regarding Ethan in extreme abdominal pain)

thinks she just can't deal with another child in pain.

Ethan is at school today. It was a good night for him. Not so good for Sadie, though. She is home today. Thirteen days of sickness in our house. Wondering when I will get a complete, uninterrupted night's sleep again.

Well, Ethan did end up with pain last night, although it only registered an 8 or 9 with him and only lasted about 3 hours, so, we got discharged. Limited diet with a follow-up and endoscopy scheduled on the 29th. The doc listed several things that this might be the start of, but only time will tell. We are praying f...

and we are moving on up....to a grilled cheese and chicken broth!

good night last night! Yay! No pain and he slept through. That is proving the theory about the inflammed small intestines/obstruction. He will go to xray this morning and then start on some clear liquids and see how it goes! Thanks for all the prayers, thoughts and offers. We are good right now.

we are here tonight. x-ray in the morning, compare it, then clear liquids to start. gradually move on to solids and then wait to see about pain. my guess is we will be here tomorrow night, too, because the pain tends to worse at nights. thanks for the prayers, thoughts and wishes. phone back up and running.

at Brenner's rm 824. Will be here at least through tomorrow.Theory - swollen lymph nodes are constricting small intestines, making food passage very difficult and slow. Backup of food waiting to try to pass is enlarging intestines. Very painful. Ethan cannot eat of drink to give his bowels a chillout. Cell phone ba...
thinks this is the toughest night.

could use some prayers. Ethan is still having major abdominal pain. We have an appointment with the Pediatric Gastroentrologist at Baptist on Tuesday. Just need some answers, but know there is a good chance we will never get any and just have to deal with this later onset type of colick. We are tired.

does anyone know how the gi bug lasts - this one just makes your stomach feel as if it has borken glass in it - very painful. It started with Ethan last Wednesday night and is still going on tonight. I really thought he was over it - any thoughts out there?

ok, so, I really need to start feeling better. It is very hard to have my routine/schedule off for so many days now. Oh, and Ledfordians - just buy your tickets already so we can stop with the reminders! :) Too many of you have told me your are coming and yet, you are not on the list...get it done!

is sick as a dog...got the bug from Ethan. It is terrible. What a weekend.

is going to slink down to the basement as soon as the kids aren't looking. Wonder how long I can be down there before they organize a search party.

will head to the pool, IF the kids get their chores and school work done.
praying for my Ethan who has been up two nights with terrific stomach and back pain. We head back to the doctor this morning at 10:45. We all need some sleep and a solution.

When was the last time you and your high school frriends were in the same room? Did you say twenty years? Then get your booty over to the reunion site and purchase your tickets...NOW! Don't miss out on a fantastic weekend!

feels quite vindicated. After arriving home from scouts tonight, Ethan sat me down on the sofa and said, "Mom, I admit it. I am addicted to my Nintendo. It is so distracting and all I can think about is that game." There is hope for my boy. Thank you, Lord, for showing me that bit of encouragement to start another day of mothering tomorrow!

is listening to Ethan doing some sort of weird, very loud beat box/singing when he is supposed to be doing homework. This, after he moaned and groaned about too much homework and not getting to play enough. Homework is still not getting done. I seriously don't think I am going to survive this year with him.

besides the Twilight series, what have you read lately that you would recommend? I am starting a "Books I Need to Read" list after abandoning it 9 years ago with the birth of my first child. Here's to exercising my brain again!

is stunned...the house is clean, the kids asleep, laundry folded, tomorrow prepared and a husband out of town. What is a girl to do?

is looking for a reputable plumber. Cough up some names, friends of fb!

is heading out to Charlottesville for the weekend.
now that school is back in for almost everyone, when are we having a scrapbook morning at my house? Who's in?

was reminded today that often our most difficult suffering leads to our greatest blessing.

felt a little overwhelmed at the Star Aquatics meeting tonight. Hopefully, it was really due to an overly tired kindergartener, Lily, who entered the room crying and spent the rest of the meeting whispering in my ear.

Most of all I thank God because with out cancer I would have not experienced all these blessings. Every step on this cancer journey He always gave me what I needed at the time I needed it. His faithfulness was never ending and rock solid. He constantly held me in the plam of His hand and I really felt His prescence." Continued below.

Just got DENIED by our new insurance on my breat MRI and was told, "We're sorry but your one sister who died is not enough to warrant these tests." Excuse me?!?!? Just how many women in my family have to die in order for this to be "ok" with you people?!?!? I am going to WAR! So angry I could spit! I already paid $...

has spent the morning in tears. Just sent my last one off to kindergarten. Eight years as a mom of preschoolers is over and now I am transitioning to the mom of a 4th, 2nd and kindergartener. Here's to a new season in life!

Working through some things necessitates a break from fb. Here's a glimpse. I'll be writing more on the blog so check in once in a while.

True holiness has at its root and overwhelming passion for the one true and holy God, not for rules, principles, or standards. This holiness is relational. God does not want perfect performances but loving persons; He is not a stage manager, but a lover. I need to get delve back into that relationship with Him and w...

thinks life is just too complicated these days...but that is probably self-created. I can't seem to say "no."

wants to express her deepest appreciation to all the kind words, thoughts and prayers to my facebook friends. Truly, they have been a comfort to me. I have said it before and will say it again...facebook is made for times like these. Thank you, friends.

The obituary I wrote for my grandfather. He will be missed. What a man.

is finishing the slide show for my grandfather's celebration of life and then
heading to the pool to relax. despite our saddness, I enjoyed hanging at my grandmother's house as a family for the first time in years. What warm memoires that house holds for me.

He is gone, gone from my sight is all. Others can see him and have welcomed him home. Please pray for my little Gram who has lost her husband of 67 years.

class lists came today - looks like Cashwell for Lily, Shores for Sadie and Bingham for Ethan. School starts in just over 2 weeks.

actually had a decent night's sleep at Hospice last night. The sofas are so comfortable there. My grandfather is one tough bird - will be going back later this afternoon. Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers, my friends.

has been at Hospice since 4 am, home to regroup, nap, and then head back there.
is continuing to cycle through a bad sleeping pattern. Hope it ends soon.

is waiting for that phone call.

had three butterflies hatch this morning. So cool to watch that transformation!
is getting ready to dive into the world of Sequence and Sorry Sliders.

is back home and thrilled with the spiritual growth in Ethan. He can't wait to go back next summer! Wow - Camp Lurecrest ROCKS!

is going to pick up her boy today! Yay! Can't wait to see him, hear all about his adventures and wash the one outfit he probably wore the entire time he was gone!

can't sleep. Am beginning to think that coffee I had tonight was NOT decaf. Someone is going to pay.

is trying to figure out how to tell the kids that for the second time this summer our beach trip is canceled.

is off for therapy at B & N.

thinking about scheduling a scrap night in the "room." Snake or no snake...who's interested?

is reworking her schedule for today to "forget" about the loads of laundry waiting to be folded. Will work at home for the business, tea at the O'Henry this afternoon with my two favorite girls and then pool time at the Elk's. Missing my boy.

believes that she saw a glimpse of where she doesn't want to spent eternity today as she spent two hours school supply shopping with her two youngest at wal-mart. Bought some storage containers for the scraproom hoping that Mr. Snakey Snakey would be in...

has ordered what is needed for school uniforms today and will head out for school supply shopping. Making my list and checking it off!

Jay is home. Yay! I got a t-shirt and something that, for me, ranks higher than a small box with something sparkly in it...a big hunk of Dutch cheese!

nothing beats finding three turtles with scotch tape covering part of their shells. Hmmmmm....only Sadie. just found a turtle in her laundry room sink. I'm ready to move.

is thinking about taking the girls to "afternoon tea" at the O.Henry this week. Has anyone else done that?

thinks that dropping your oldest at his first official away camp (not counting scouts where he knew most of the poeple) is very much like that first day of kindergarten. Lots of tears....from the mom.

will take Ethan to Charlotte today to catch the "camp bus," head back to HP to pick up Lily from a birthday party and then head to the swim team banquet. No snake in trap, yet. Though a little surprised that it is simply an open ended box (more like

a heading to the office this morning, the Elk's pool this afternoon and a dinner with a friend tonight. Snake guru coming tomorrow with trap and "snake away." Life is good.

really needs Critter Control to call me back. Does anyone have an "in" with someone willing to come catch a snake? Seriously.

Ethan told me that if I wore a bikini and you know, didn't have that wrinkly skin on my belly from having babies I would look 29. Uh, thanks, Ethan. I think. Heading to Moe's with the kids for dinner to fill up that wrinkly skin.

oh WOW! My sweet, sweet son surprised me by making me a pot of coffee and then bringing me a cup at the computer. He said it was just because he loves me. How can this not be the perfect start to my day?!?

So, Jay has left on his trip and I have been left with a garden snake in my house. I think there better be more than a t-shirt in his return luggage. Anyone want to come catch a snake?

is thankful she doesn't live in the land of medium like Karl, right, G?. Enjoyed a rocking night of RB and hearing about exciting plans for two good friends.

wonders if it would be totally cruel NOT to tell the person who is suppose do some work in the basement today about the snake. The snake is not all it is cracked up to be...caught a mouse in a trap last night. Who wants to come to my house?

is going to bed knowing there is a snake slithering wherever it wants in my basement and possibly up in the haning ceiling which is right below my bed. Don't think this is going to be the best sleep ever.

is completely freaking out because of the large, possibly venomous snake that was sitting on top of warm electronics in the basement. I just left a snare-wielding, pillowcase-toting, headlamp-wearing husband to search for the now missing snake. I will p

is working in the office today. At least it is raining.

just ate some yummy homemade strawberry ice cream made in the ice cream maker Jay and I insisted HAD to be on our wedding registry nearly 11 years ago. It is the third time we have ever used it.

is realizing that she would do just about anything to not have to fold the laundry on the kitchen table.

has discovered the addicting qualities of the game Sequence.

is finally home and YES the suit was found. We did have brief panic (had to leave the house by 7:30 AM(, but Sadie was able to locate it in a drawer where no other clothing is kept. Go figure! Good meet for the kids - some highs, some lows...and now BO

cannot find Sadie's black swim suit. Do I wait until the morning to ask her, risking the chance she doesn't know where it is and panic ensues? Or, should I potentially waste more time tonight searching for it?

is packing up to spend ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL day tomorrow at the Lindley Park Pool for the GSO City Swim Meet. Did I mention that it is ALLLLLLLLLLLLLL day?

wonders why some children seem to have been born with filters between brain and mouth and some have to be taught the hard way. Sigh.

just got back from a very last minute date night with the husband. Nice! Feeling a little more feuled up for tomorrow.

is seriously trying to figure out how Jay booked a trip to see the Tour de France on his birthday and visit his parents for a couple of days. Seriously. I better get a t-shirt.

has an hour and a half to get the house in order, laundry done, dinner/snacks/drinks packed up and get out the door for the last swim meet before City. And, here I sit on FB. Why? For the love of good time management, WHY?

really wishes FB had spell check for those that are poor spellers, poor proofreaders or for those most unfortunate, like me, both.

is packing for a day at the Elkl's pool tomorrow then onto a cookout and fireworks with the family.

just clued in that her child's behavioral issues might have been tied into a lack of sleep. She just slept 12.5 hours. Here's to a better day!

enjoyed a late morning with Jay and the kids Now, onto a day of summer reading, bowling, piano/guitar lessons and then swim practice!

is waiting for Jay to come home tonight! Yay!

loved seeing smiles and the great attitudes of my kids tonight after the swim meet. Sadie said, "I want to swim forever and ever and ever." Ethan said, "Actually, I can't wait to do it again." Elks' swim coaches...you rock!

is so ready to hang up her "planner/coordinator" hat. Done. Finished. Over it!
trying to figure out what to do with the rest of my day since we don't have to go to

the pool for swim practice, no camps to shuttle to, no husband to schedule with and no sick children to heal.

is going to have paper and scissor therapy tonight. Ahhhhhh.....

is parenting solo again...for nearly a week. Say a prayer for me!

Ethan had his first guitar lesson today. We have been "delighted" to hear the sounds of something faintly resembling "Smoke on the Water" tonight. At least I think that is what it is...

is actually very sad and shocked that Michael Jackson is gone. "Off the Wall" was my first ever album purchase. How many times did we all watch that Thriller video on M
TV? Despite all of his utter ridiculousness of the past decade, I still expected ther

Ethan is home from his first overnight camp experience. All went well...now to open his bag and see the filth within! The girls are crazy happy to have him home.

Sadie apologetically announced to me that she "accidently" let Lily use her toothbrush which she had just used. How soon is too soon to be tested for step?

decided to take Sadie to the doctor...confirmed strep throat. Her times last night don't look so bad in light of this news. She gave all her little body could give. (Can you hear my guilt?) Assuming her fever stays down, we will be back into the swing

despite recovering from illness, Sadie still pushed herself to swim tonight. Maybe I shouldn't have let her, but she at least finished her races. Tired and puny little girl on my hands.

is dreaming of July...nothing on the calendar and time to write, write, write.

decided to listen to my child for a change and believe her when she said she didn't feel well after falling asleep at the pool. Temperature: 101. Here's to a speedy recovery so she can swim in the meet tomorrow night.

will miss Ethan who is off on his first overnight camp for the week and Jay who will soon be leaving for Toronto again. Looks like it will just be me and my girls this week.

just left possibly the most fun wedding ever! And, I found the most fantastic and surprising dance partner - Ethan! What a dancer!!! LOVE IT! Now, onto Father's Day and packing Ethan up for Weeblo camp.

has a long, but fun day of "wedding" tomorrow. Eight dresses later, I think this is my last one as a matron of honor/bridesmaid.

way to go my little fish, Sadie! Improved times on 3 of 3 events and two ribbon placements! I think we have finally found her "niche."

is wedding #2 festivities begin today! What a crazy summer!

is trying to get everyone ready for the swim meet. Sadie is the swimming the flag across the pool tonight in front of a few hundred. What a risk taker. Video camera is charged and ready!

ahhhhhhh - Jay is home and the normal rhythm of our house is returning.

has had her ridicoulsly crafted schedule interrupted by a sick child and she is actually relieved. I would much prefer to be cuddling with a puny one than trying to maintain over-scheduled insanity.

is not too happy when the response to "So, when does it look like you are coming home?" is, "I am not sure." Wedding #2 is this weekend, so he HAS to be home by Friday...right?

is very ready for her husband to come home. Oh Canada...

taught the oldest two how to play "Clue" tonight - a lesson in patience and self-control. It was funny that Sadie kept saying "Cool Mustard" instead of Colonel Mustard.

An election won by means of censorship and arrests of journalists is not democratic.
Go Moussavi! The world supports you.

is ready to start book #2...just me and Edward tonight. Jay is still out of town.
8 am swim practice this ONE time only - it has to be C-O-L-D. But, at least the kids and I will get our pick of the chairs.

finally succombed to the Twilight rage.

had the car partially packed and got the call. No Pawley's. My poor friend's mother is in the hospital unexpectedly and it is not good. Prayers to my friend and thinking about my now plan-free weekend.

is packing the kids for Pawley's and Jay for Toronto.

Smacked, slapped and stunned into facing my advancing age.

is recovering. When did I become "old?"

is heading to Boone for a little girls' get away weekend with my stepsister before she gets hitched.

is trying to figure out why I waited until the kids got out of school to go get my car aligned/tires rotated and balanced. Hope Van York is prepared.

has never seen Sadie so excited about something than she was about swim practice tonight. She couldn't believe it when practice was over and announced that it was "just awesome!" Wonder if she will say the same thing at the end of June?

loves her husband for sitting out in the sun watching a baseball game which he was totally not interested in watching.

first day of summer and a great morning. Slept in until about 8, a sweet little peck on the cheek from Sadie to wake me up, and no fighting (yet). Hope this is a sign of what the summer will be like. I can dream, right?

thinks it must be a great day for Ethan - last day of school and his birthday all rolled into one. Turning 9 today and getting his first electric guitar. I think our house will never be the same. Earplugs...anyone?

Sadie asked me to "rememberize" a bible verse tonight and Lily asked to jump on the "champoline." The days of mispronunciation are nearing their end.
is overloaded.

thinks the end of the school year is a test of all mothers. The kids are over it, there are more deadlines for the moms than the rest of the year combined, plans for the long summer are not yet complete which adds to the panic-stricken mother. We also al

is having a great family and friends weekend. And, it isn't over! Yay!

getting ready to head to the dump. Let's just hope there are no mice in the bags who decide to bail during the car ride. It has happened before. Ick!

LHS Debaters (and other alum) passing the word, Mr. Hudson passed away yesterday. Four years of being in his classroom...lots of memories there.

wonders what it says that I broke a drumstick last night after finally getting the Wii to work. Angst?

Hmpf. 7:54 pm. Girls are in bed asleep. Boys are out of the house. Think I just need to blow off some steam...heading to the basement for...you know it...ROCK BAND!

is preparing herself for BAWL FEST 2009 tomorrow. My youngest, Lily, graduates from preschool, thus ending 9 years of being a toddler/preschool mom. Let's just hope they don't play "My Wish" at the ceremony.

is outside, listening to the sounds of screaming and fighting by her children inside the house. This is not a good sign and the realization that summer begins for them in a mere week has not gone unnoticed. Sigh.

Ok - that is just terrible. Especially if you know how the Dutch pronounce the gr and sh sounds.

wants the name of the person(s) responsible for giving the "green light" to inserting KidzBob cds in McD happy meals. I am taking him/her out. Who's with me?

needs coffee administered intravenously this morning. Can not wake up.

has been a complete sloth today.

Four hair appointments, three flower girl dresses with matching shoes, 2 boys' suits with ties, multiple cameras = $$$. Memories from this day? Priceless.
thinks rock band is like crack cocaine.

wedding weekend #1 starts today!

Lily pranced herself in the house announcing, Sadie has a lizard and I'm going to get him a bandaid 'cause hims bleeding." I just don't want to know.

still wanderlusting...how long is this going to last?

has two children asleep in her bed, one child asleep on her floor, a husband out of town and a massively painful headache. That all equals one thing...no sleep for me tonight.

is looking for a dance camp for Lily this summer. Who is "in the know?" Hit me up with some info!

Is so excited that her (step)brother, wife, niece (yay!) and nephew (whom I have never met) are flying in today from East Asia for the wedding next week. First time we will all be together in over 2 years. I *heart* family!

had a dream where I was at my high school reunion and I was really, really short. It was a shock to me that everyone was much taller than I remembered. Weird.

had no idea so many people had snake in the toilet fears! Bet you will check twice today before sitting down.

spent the afternoon and evening with her 83 year old grandmother in the hospital.

She received another stint after a mild heart attack and is already asking when she gets to go home. What strength...what a lady!

doesn't think she will eat for days. PFChang's topped off with Ben & Jerry's = Gluteny. I must repent!

thinks that the slow, rhythmic breathing of a child sleeping must be one of the most heavenly sounds. It is putting me to sleep as well

took the girls to pick strawberries...strawberry jam, strawberry smoothies, strawberry shortcakes, strawberries and cream...ok, I'll stop. I sound like Bubba in Forest Gump.

and we're moving back uuuuuup! To the top. The market renters are gone and we're baaackkk. Yeah, we're moving back up... Sad that my kids don't get that reference.

showed extreme restraint when a little girl made fun of her little Lily, her glasses and her sometimes crossing eyes. GRRRRRRR! Mama Bear is in protective mode, especially because it made Lily cry.

learned that 8-year old boys can latch on to a "phrase for the day" and repeat it over and over and over. Shopping for a suit for Ethan today and kept hearing, "Canadian bacon." Can someone explain this phenomenom?
 
just saw "Art & Copy" at the River Run Film Festival. Very, very motiviating for creative types. Great flick! Seeing Jimmy Greenway was an extra bonus!

and family will be reprising their guest roles in, "The People Who Live Under the Stairs," beginning today and running through May 2. Call for show times.

I drink good coffee every morning, it comes from a place far away. When I am done, I feel like talking. Without you here, there is less to say. ...Missing her today...

thinks she is going to go insane. Sadie just found the "auto play" feature of her keyboard. It sounds like Liberace on disco. Imagine my luck..all while finishing up the house for market. Shoot me.

just realized I have feet the size of an 8-9 year old boy. I just took the dog out and mistakenly wore Ethan's flip flops...and they fit! Hmmm - more flip flops for me!

went on a run today - perfect weather, new mp3 player, no cars...I love where I live! Running 2 miles? That is another story.

On of our own, Jimmy Greenway, class of '86, produced this movie. I am planning on attending. Spread the word.

says nothing shouts "fun!" like the stomach bug at Great Wolf Lodge. But, we had a great time, despite Sadie being very under the weather. More info coming.

market cleaning is ON!

says unfortunately, the trip home was not nearly as enjoyable as the one down. But, we are home safe!

is at the beach, cold and windy, but I have Wifi and pizza on the way!

is heading for the beach today with the three kids in tow. Looks like we will swing
by Chapel Hill for our NATIONAL CHAMPIONSHIP t-shirts. YEAH BABY!!!!

loves those Tarheel boys! Way to go Heels! Unbelievable win!

CAN...NOT...WAIT...FOR...9:21!!!!! WHIP 'EM, BOYS!

is gearing up for the BIG game tonight. GO HEELS!!!!!!

is packing up today!

LOVE MY HEELS!

is doing some research and is asking for help. Please check out my blog. THANKS!

Calling all ladies - need your help answering some questions. PLEASE! :)

just served cupcakes to Sadie's class. Little did they know they were really meatloaf and colored mashed potatoes! Overheard from one child, "Mine's not very good, is yours?" April Fool's! We'll eat the leftovers for dinner.

just realized that Easter break starts FRIDAY. Not only does this mean one less week to clean for market, but I have a week with the kids at home with NO plans. I am thinking the beach for a few days. Any ideas? Anyone?

got her phone call today. Two spots from August look clear. Yay! BUT (and there always is one with me), the image was not super clear, but good enough to satisfy them for now. Will go back in July. Moving on!

only got "dangly" afterall. No phone calls, yet. Things are looking good. Thanks everyone!

's "girls" are going to get flattened, squished, and dangly tomorrow at her 6-month MRI and mammo follow-up to the August scare. Here's to no call backs!!!

Whoo hooo - Final 4 baby! Go HEELS!

thinks she is just going to slink on out the door....

is getting ready to go to yet another pre-wedding shindig.

Rant, rant, rant.

is enjoying the sweet sounds of silence for the next 24 + hours.

can't tell if she is just incredibly giddy about her first weekend without hubby AND kids or if she is jacked up on too much caffeine.

Ok, something is really wrong with my inbox on fb. It says 28, but when I go to view my inbox, the number changes to 26. It keeps going back & forth. Huh?

can't sleep, can't sleep, CAN'T SLEEP! Ugh.

was just called out for talking about front-loading washers on a Saturday night on FB. Gees, I am getting old.

is looking at front-loading washers. Who has one and do you like it?
wants to know who is on twitter?

is thinking it is going to be a crafty Saturday!

is enjoying a leisurly morning with the kids who are out of school - homemade pancakes with real whipped cream. Yum!

spring has sprung and so have the animals. Thanks, kids, for bringing home crayfish and salamaders from the creek. I know, I know...

begins the soccer and wedding party season today.

quotes, "Will Blythe writes that he is a “sick, sick man,” consumed yet delighted by his hatred of Duke. It’s a feeling many of us can identify with."

For the love of all things beautiful, why was this allowed to be built? My eyes are still reeling. I would love to find anyone, any. one. soul., who stayed here. Be sure to scroll through ALL the picture and read the commentary. Hilarious.

is blogging, blogging, blogging...at least trying to get in the zone.

just got back from a marathon Wal-Mart trip where I purchased an iron. Sigh.

's little Lovey is down for the count...cough and fever.

is trying to fashion a Cindy Loo Who costume with a $3 fiber optic Hannah Montanna wig and a coat hanger. Shoot me.

's husband just moved the wii and Rock Band to the basement. Now I, I mean, Ethan can really rock out.

's kids got up at 6:00AM ready to play in the snow after just snow skiing for 3 days. The excitement for it never ends.

just got home from skiing in the rain, skiing in the fog and skiing in the snow. Great weekend!

is watching the rain at Sugar Mountain. Looks like a wet day on the slopes.

is laughing at Lily putting on her "lickstick."

is lisening to the dueling TobyMac wannabe's. My two oldest with their mp3 players. Do they know how loud they are?

has 25 hours worth of work for 24 hours of time. Packing up for ski weekend with the family.

is emotionally and mentally exhausted.

was just reminded a dessert needs to be made for scouts tonight, which was supposed to made by Jay and Ethan. Guess who is going to have to do it?

spent way too long on the "music that shaped me" note. But, it was fun.

says we were made to love.

rocked it with TobyMac, but is still trying to figure out Family Force 5...

is getting ready to take the kids swimming, then onto Winter Jam/TobyMac tonight!
thinks she might head upstairs armed with a garbarge bag, a goodwill box and chlorox while the kids are at school. But do I really want to do that on a Friday?

says the snoring has stopped, but now I can't sleep.

really wishes Jay would quit snoring beside me. Ugh!

is contemplating snow tubing, Hanging Rock and TobyMac at Winter Jam this weekend. Fun!

says OK people, come out of the woodwork and give me your best family fun activites. I need ideas for this weekend and we might all need some new ideas.

is home and ready to start a new week.

had to pick up Little Lovey early from school because she had a major colllision on the track. What a shiner! Ouch!

is getting ready for a long walk on the beach!

wonders why anyone comes to Myrtle Beach and eats at Red Lobster, Cracker Barrell or Olive Garden.

is remembering and is sad.

read that some Duke students have spent during their 4 years 188 days--over half a year--in a tent to watch four losses. Boo hoo!

wants to announce to the world that she hates Air Supply. And while she's at it, throw in Hall and Oates, too. GO HEELS!

is trying to figure out what to do on Friday.

says she had a little girl with tears this morning because the Tooth Fairy didn't come last night. :( Oops!

is trying to clear her head and time of distractions this week. Can we say...Rock Band?

wonders that if you are supposed to relax at a retreat, why am I so tired now that I am home! Good times!

is "retreating" this weekend in Myrtle Beach. Yahoo!

is thrilled to be reconnected with her debate camp roommate summer '87. I love facebook!

didn't think about posting her blog link. Huh. Thanks, Angela!

is rockin'

has posted her menu plan on what's cooking.

doesn't think she will go see "Land of the Lost." Am I the only one who was terrified of the Sleestacks as a child?

is dying over the beginning of The Office. This has got to be good.

says Ethan just ran into the house yelling, "Daddy and I just found a snake and he said we could keep him!!!" What? I don't think so!

has just passed hard on rock band drums...expert is on the horizon!

is getting ready to pack up for a sleepover with 70 little girls at church tonight.

is a bit worn out from getting one ready for spirit day, one for pajama day and one sick at home.

is wearing her Miss Piggy T-shirt today for Rebecca. Kissy Kissy!

realizes it is impossible to sing to Alvin & the Chipmonks. I know, why would I want too?

blogged and is excited.

says, "Join up! The fb group "What's Cooking" is now open."

is up way too early. Thanks, Dixie.

screamed like a little girl tonight at church.

is getting ready to rock it at Kidz Blitz!

wonders how I got so lucky to have only one other person in the house with me this afternoon, and she is 4!

is getting herself pumped up to tackle the new level of defiance that has suddenly appeared in her house.

loves that a dinner status brings out comments from so many! Dinner suggestion club seems to be in order! BTW - Dinner was great!

is cooking up breakfast for dinner tonight - requested by the kids.

is glad everyone is out of the house and I have the puppy all to myself!

's kids were up at 6:15 wanting me to get the snow clothes out. So much for sleeping in! At 4, this is Lily's first real snow.

is thrilled that Jay announced last night, "We need to come up with an exit strategy for the squirrel!" Yay!

says it looks like "Dixie" is staying, at least for a few more days.

is "begrudgingly" giving the puppy another couple of days. Can the kids handle it? Only time can tell. Any name suggestions?

is getting ready for the "family pow-wow" regarding the puppy that was supposed to stay ONLY ONE night.

is getting slobbered with kisses from the puppy that is staying only one, repeat ONLY ONE, night.

just challenged Jay on his attempt to use the word "nabu" in a nasty game of scrabble.

is contemplating whether my heart can handle another t-heels game tonight.
encountered failure in the kitchen tonight. Crossing out lemon chicken with ginger and pine nuts, but putting a star beside turnip gruyere gratin.

kicked it with braised Chinese spare ribs, teryaki noodles and steamed cabbage. Love my new cookbook!

is getting ready to get the kids in the bed after some M&Ms.

says boys, you can't win a b-ball game if you get 3+ rebounds per possession and STILL CAN'T MAKE A BASKET! UGH!

cannot take this game.

has settled in to watch my tarheel boys play. GO HEELS

just did a little crafting in the scraproom.

just saw our neighbor's puppies. 1/2 dauchshund 1/2 beagle = alll love! Adorable!

is waiting.

is cracking open the new cookbook and making some Thai chicken in cabbage leaves tonight. Yum! Yum!

wonders how 8, yes 8, cans of evaporated milk made their way into the pantry.

just cleaned the squirrel cage and let me tell you - the magic is GONE. I am OVER it!

is a little worried. Jay just threatened to download the video from NYE DDR on his fb page.

is recovering and cooking up the greens today.